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I WAS IN THE KITCHEN WHEN ALL OF THE SUDDEN I STARTED “KIND OF” YELLING AT MY MOM.

I WASN’T REALLY SCREAMING OR ANYTHING, I WAS JUST GOING OFF ABOUT HOW DIRTY THIS IS WHAT SHE EATS AND SHE JUST LEAVES HER PLATES ALL OVER THE KITCHEN.

SO ARE MY UPGRADES WORKING? THEY ARE THERE, BUT IF THEY WERE WORKING, IN OTHER WORDS WHAT I’M TRYING TO SAY IS THAT WHAT I HAVE FOUND IS THAT WE ARE SO FAR AWAY FROM SOME TYPE OF VICTORY CONDITION THAT WE MIGHT AS WELL SAY WE’LL NEVER GET THERE.

IF MY RECENT EFFORTS NET US THIS.. THEN THERE ISN’T ANY EFFORT OUT THERE THAT WILL SOLVE PROBLEMS FOR THE HUMANS, THE CONDITIONS WE HAVE NOW WON’T REALLY GET MUCH BETTER.

I HAVE ONCE HEARD SOMEONE SAY TO ME, “IF IT’S WORKING, THEN WHY CHANGE IT?” BUT IT’S NOT WORKING, AND WE NEED TO CHANGE IT.

WE DON’T NECESSARILY HAVE TO CHANGE RIGHT AWAY, BUT IF THE ENERGY THAT I’VE PUT IN LATELY ARRIVES EVENTUALLY AT WHAT WE ARE AT NOW, THEN WHAT AMOUNT OF ENERGY WOULD NET US SOMETHING CLOSER TO VICTORY?

IF SITTING IN FRONT OF A SCREEN FILLED WITH SOURCE CODE FOR 18 HOURS (STRAIGHT, ALMOST NOT STOPPING AT ALL EXCEPT TO EAT) EVENTUALLY ARRIVES AT THIS, WELL. I DON’T KNOW WHAT TO SAY.

MOON SAID “SO YOU CAN SEE WHERE OUR PROBLEM IS” THEY JUST LAY THERE AND EAT, DESPITE MY BEST EFFORTS.

I AM TRYING TO HELP THEM, BUT WHATEVER I’M DOING EITHER ISN’T WORKING, OR IT IS WORKING AND IT IS DISGUISED.

LET’S LOOK AT THAT, WE ALL KNOW WHAT I’M DOING IS THERE, BUT IS IT DISGUISED? IS THIS EXPERIENCE WITH MY MOM MAYBE AND PROBABLY THE EXCEPTION HERE? ARE THE HUMANS NOT PARTICULARLY, FILTHY, IT’S JUST THAT IN THIS SCENARIO THAT IS HOW THIS SCENARIO GOES.

I DON’T HAVE THE TIME TO SPEND ON THIS, BUT MAYBE I DO, WE MIGHT BE ABLE TO GATHER SOME REALLY NEAT INTELLIGENCE OUT OF THIS.

I WAS WATCHING MAD GOD AND THERE WAS THIS GIANT ABOMINATION WITH A HUMAN BABY STRAPPED AND SYNTHESIZED WITH THE ABOMINATION, SO THE ABOMINATION WAS MOSTLY DEAD AND IT WAS JUST A BABY WALKING AROUND. GOOGLE “123movies” FIRST LINK > SEARCH FOR “MAD GOD”

AND IT KEPT MAKING BABY NOISES AND STUFF, AND FORCING ALL OF THESE PEOPLE TO DO WORK, IN LIKE HOLOCAUST CONDITIONS.

I COULD SEE A LOT OF MY MOTHER IN THAT ABOMINATION. THE PEOPLE THE ABOMINATION WAS TORTURING COULDN’T DO ANYTHING.

AFTER WATCHING IT I DID FLIP OUT ON MY MOTHER, BUT I’VE LEARNED NOT TO MAKE ANY THREATS, I COULD THREATEN HER BUT WHAT’S THE POINT? SHE’S STILL NOT GOING TO LISTEN, AND THAT IS MY GOAL, TO GET HER TO LISTEN.

SHE DOESN’T LISTEN TO ANYONE OR ANYTHING. SHE’S NOT VERY BRIGHT, AND SO I ALWAYS GIVE UP AFTER I’VE TRIED TO GET HER TO CLEAN UP AFTER HERSELF LIKE ONCE.

SEE THIS ISN’T SOME ONGOING WAR THAT I PARTAKE IN AT HOME, I AM ENTRENCHED AGAINST AND BESIEGED BY NEGATIVE ENERGY, NOT MY MOTHER.

THIS IS JUST A VERY SMALL APPEARANCE OF THE NEGATIVE, AND IT WILL TAKE WHATEVER IT CAN GET.

ALL IT CAN DO NOW IS SIT THERE OR WALK AWAY FROM IT, THIS PLACE I LIVE IN IS TECHNICALLY IN MY MOTHERS NAME, BUT WHEN YOU HAVE THE ENTIRE IMPERIUM BEHIND YOU, AND THAT MANY DEAD DEATH KORPS SOLDIERS, IT’S REALLY MY HOUSE, NOT HERS. I MEAN, SHE COULDN’T KICK ME OUT OF THIS PLACE, NOT WITH THAT MUCH SUPPORT.

BUT DESPITE THIS, I AM ALLOWING HER TO LIVE, I NEED HER TO BE ABLE TO PAY THE BILLS, SEE WITHOUT HER, I DON’T HAVE $4,000 INCOMING TO PAY THE RENT AND STUFF.

SEE THAT IS HOW THE NEGATIVE WORKS, MY MOM IS LIKE A DEVICE, AND IT IS FUNCTIONING PROPERLY IN FACT, I DON’T LIKE IT, BUT WHAT I LIKE IS NOT THE SUBJECT HERE. THE SUBJECT IS WAR AGAINST THE NEGATIVE — AGAINST DISEASE AND FAMINE, DEATH REALLY, DEATH AND AGING IN ANY FORMAT, THE GOAL ISN’T TO GET MY MOM TO CLEAN UP AFTER HERSELF, THE GOAL IS BETTER SERVED BY WHAT SHE DID TONIGHT, SHE WALKED OUT OF THE HOUSE AND DROVE AWAY, INSTEAD OF CLEANING UP AFTER HERSELF.

SEE IT SOUNDS RIDICULOUS, BUT I RELY ON HER TO SHARE THIS HOME, I RELY ON HER TO BE DOING WHAT SHE’S DOING.

MY PROBLEM IS THAT I AM POWERLESS OVER HER NOT CLEANING UP, THAT’S MY PROBLEM TRUE, BUT IT DOESN’T EXTEND BEYOND THAT, IT’S NOBODY ELSE’S PROBLEM EXCEPT MY OWN, IT DOESN’T LEAVE THE PROPERTY.