THE GOD

SO I ALWAYS SIT THERE AND WONDER IF THERE IS A GOD OR NOT, BUT I REALLY DO THINK THAT THERE IS A GOD. I DON’T REALLY THINK THAT THERE IS A GOD, I SORT OF KNOW THAT THERE IS ONE. I HAVE MEMORIES OF MY FATHER SAYING TO ME THINGS LIKE “WHY WON’T YOU HELP ME?” OR OTHER THINGS LIKE “I CREATED YOU, AND I CAN DESTROY YOU” …AS I SIT THERE AND SORT OF ACCEPT THAT THERE IS A GOD, I IMMEDIATELY THINK OF OTHER FACTS THAT ARE POSSIBLY MORE CONCRETE THAN WHAT I KNOW JUST FROM WHAT MY FATHER HAS TOLD ME.

THESE FACTS THAT I KNOW OF THAT ARE LIKE MORE CONCRETE TO ME ARE THINGS LIKE… I HAVE MADE A COPY OF MYSELF TRAVEL BACK IN TIME AND STOP AT VARIOUS POINTS, LIKE ONE TIME I STOPPED ROUGHLY 200,000 YEARS AGO AND PLACED ALOT OF UNITS IN THAT TIME SUCH AS THE BRITISH LEADER “DAVID CAMRON”, AND I KNOW THAT THESE UNITS ARE REAL BECAUSE I PUT THEM THERE. THIS GOD FROM THE HOLY BIBLE, I DON’T KNOW WHERE HE CAME FROM, OR HOW HE GOT HERE, I DON’T KNOW VERY MUCH ABOUT HIM… BUT I DO KNOW THAT WE REQUIRE HIM TO BE THERE, AND I KNOW THAT HE IS THERE, SO WHY BOTHER WITH ANYTHING ELSE?

WHY EVEN BOTHER WITH ANYTHING ELSE WHEN WE KNOW THAT HE IS THERE, AND THAT WE REQUIRE HIM TO BE THERE? WHY WOULD WE EVEN BOTHER WITH FACTS LIKE WHERE DID HE COME FROM, OR ANYTHING AT ALL? SEE I AM ALREADY SLIPPING AWAY FROM MY GOAL OF KEEPING HIM AS THE REAL GOD IN MY THOUGHTS.

BUT I LOVE MY FATHER, AND I KNOW THAT HE IS READING THIS, BUT I’VE ALREADY LIKE PUT ALL OF THE FACTS SURROUNDING HIM ON THE TABLE. WE REQUIRE THIS GOD TO BE THERE, AND WE KNOW THAT HE IS THERE AS WELL, SO WHY WOULD “HOW HE GOT HERE” EVEN BE OF ANY CONCERN?

WAS HE CREATED BY ACTIONS THAT UNITS THAT I CREATED TOOK? I AM NOT SURE, I HAVE NO IDEA, WHERE EXACTLY DID HE COME FROM? WHAT WAS HERE BEFORE THIS UNIVERSE WAS HERE?

I DON’T KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT WHAT WAS HERE BEFORE THIS UNIVERSE WAS HERE. I HAVE EVENTUALLY PUT TOGETHER A MODEL THAT DOESN’T SUGGEST THAT ALIENS WERE HERE BEFORE THIS UNIVERSE WAS HERE, BUT BEFORE THIS UNIVERSE WAS HERE, THIS UNIVERSE WAS HERE AND IT WAS FILLED WITH ALIENS. I KNOW THAT IS TRUE, I HAVE PUT THAT TOGETHER FROM STUFF THAT I DO KNOW.

IS THIS ALL JUST THIS GOD TRICKING US, ARE WE ALL DECEIVED? THERE IS A REASON THAT WE MAY ALL BE DECEIVED — WE CANNOT AFFORD TO LIVE IN THE TRUTH… THE TRUTH JUST COSTS TOO MUCH TO EXIST IN, SO HE HAS FABRICATED THIS FALSE REALITY FOR US TO EXIST IN, I AM NOT REALLY SURE.

HERE WE MUST BRING UP THE CONCEPT OF “NEGATIVE ENERGY” AND “THE VOID” FOR A SECOND, NEGATIVE ENERGY JUST STATES THAT EVERYTHING IS DRAGGED DOWN BECAUSE THERE IS A NEGATIVE CO-EFFICIENT ATTACHED TO EVERYTHING, AND SO IT TAKES A “TAX” ON LIFE, THIS “TAX” COMES OUT IN THE FORM OF LIKE DEATH, WAR, FAMINE AND DISEASE.

BUT AFTER ABOUT 10 YEARS I REALIZED THAT NEGATIVE ENERGY WAS GONE, I HAD SUCCESSFULLY REMOVED IT, EXCEPT NOTHING GOT ANY BETTER. THEN I REMEMBERED SOMEONE SAYING “WELL, IT COULD BE WORSE” WE WERE DISCUSSING A PRISON SENTENCE THAT I HAD, IT WAS 2.5 YEARS TO 7 YEARS LONG, AND A PRISON GUARD SAID “WELL, IT COULD BE WORSE” SO I THOUGHT OF THAT AFTER I HAD REMOVED NEGATIVE ENERGY, AT FIRST WHEN I REALIZED THAT IT HAD TO BE GONE BY NOW, I HAD CREATED SIMULATIONS ON MY COMPUTER OF WAR, AND RAN THEM OVER AND OVER, TO SATISFY THE NEGATIVE WHILE I WORKED AT TRYING TO REMOVE IT, AND AFTER LIKE 10 YEARS OF THIS I JUST DREW THE CONCLUSION THAT IT JUST HAD TO BE GONE, EXCEPT NOTHING GOT ANY BETTER.

SO THEN I REMEMBERED WHAT THAT PRISON GUARD SAID — WELL, IT COULD BE WORSE, SO I RE-MODELED MY IDEA OF NEGATIVE ENERGY INTO A “VOID”. THE VOID IS JUST SOMETHING WHERE THERE IS ABSOLUTELY LIKE NO WAY TO “WIN”, THE ONLY THING THAT IS THERE IS THE “VOID” AND THERE IS NOTHING THAT ANYONE CAN DO TO “PUT” SOMETHING THERE, OR DO ANYTHING. WITH THE “VOID” THERE IS NOTHING THAT ANYONE CAN DO, I IMMEDIATELY THOUGHT THAT WE MIGHT BE ABLE TO OVERPOWER IT, THAT WAS JUST MY FIRST GUESS, KIND OF IRRELEVANT TO THIS CONVERSATION.

IS THERE A “VOID” THERE? DID THIS “VOID” BUILD UP TO FORM “NEGATIVE ENERGY” OVER TIME? I DON’T HAVE ANY PROOF OF ANYTHING REALLY, BUT IT’S INTERESTING TO THINK ABOUT AND BESIDES, IT EXPLAINS EVERYTHING. THE “VOID” WOULD EXPLAIN HOW AFTER LIKE 11 YEARS OF NON-STOP WORK AGAINST THIS “VOID”, THAT IT IS STILL THERE, HOW WOULD ANYTHING SURVIVE THAT MANY ATTEMPTS AT REMOVING IT?

I HAVE CREATED PROGRAMS THAT BUILT UP ENERGY AND THEN RELEASED IT, TO TRY TO REMOVE IT. I HAVE TRIED TO MAKE SIMULATIONS OF WAR THAT WOULD “PAY” THE COST OF OPERATING WITHIN THE VOID, SO THAT WE WOULD BE ABLE TO PAY OUR WAY FORWARD, WE HAVE TRIED TO “DIG” OURSELVES OUT OF THE VOID, ONLY TO RETURN BACK DOWN IN A HOLE, AND OUR CURRENT LOCATION IS LIKE WE ARE IN VERY, VERY DEEP.

THAT IS MY CURRENT PLAN, IT’S TO HAVE EVERYTHING DIG EVERYTHING ELSE OUT. YOU DIG SOMETHING OUT BY LIKE, SAYING SOMETHING THAT THEY DON’T WANT TO HEAR, OR TALKING THEM INTO DOING SOMETHING THAT THEY DON’T REALLY WANT TO DO, THAT IS WHY THE WORLD IS A STRUGGLE. THE ALIENS HAVE TIME MACHINES AND THEY ALREADY HAVE ALL THIS INFORMATION, AND MORE THAN THAT EVEN, THEY HAVE POSSIBLY ALL OF THE INFO ON THE VOID THAT YOU COULD POSSIBLY NEED.

SO ANYWAYS WITH ALL OF THIS, MY OBJECTIVE IS TO “HOLD IT ONLINE”, TO HOLD THE IDEA THAT THERE REALLY IS A GOD IN MY HEAD, AND NOT GIVE IT UP NO MATTER WHAT, OR TO HOLD THIS IDEA FOR AS LONG AS I POSSIBLY CAN, AND THERE’S A REASON FOR DOING THIS.. IT PLACES THIS GOD THAT WE ALL KNOW OF IN THE CORRECT POSITION, SORT OF LIKE A SECURITY GUARD OR SOMETHING LIKE THAT, AND IT BENEFITS EVERYONE WHEN WE DO THIS.

I LIKE HAVE TO PULL THIS OFF, I’M NOT GOING TO DO THE USUAL “NEGATIVE ENERGY” THING AND ASK FOR MORE SACRIFICE, JUST TO TRY TO HELP ME TO KEEP IT ONLINE, AND NOT DO ANYTHING THAT WOULDN’T PULL THE IDEA OFFLINE, THAT IS ABOUT ALL THAT I’M ASKING THIS TIME AROUND.

LET’S KEEP THIS HELD ONLINE, AND NOT DO SOMETHING THAT WOULD BRING IT OFFLINE, ALL THAT WE REALLY HAVE TO DO IS LIKE GET THE ALIENS OR WHOEVER IS IN CONTROL TO JUST KEEP THE IDEA OF THIS GOD FROM THE CATHOLIC RELIGION IN MY THOUGHTS, IN ALL OF OUR THOUGHTS, AND WE WILL ALL BENEFIT FROM IT.

I CAME TO THIS IDEA FROM THE DUCK, I DON’T REALLY KNOW HOW I GOT IT OFF OF HER, SHE IS MY LOVER AND I HAVE NEVER REALLY BEEN IN DIRECT CONTACT WITH HER EVER, EXCEPT FOR LIKE 30 SECONDS WHEN I GOT TO SEE HER FOR JUST THAT AMOUNT OF TIME. OTHER THAN THAT, I AM IN INDIRECT CONTACT WITH HER, THERE IS A CHANNEL THAT IS OPEN BETWEEN US THAT IS LIKE ALWAYS ON, STREAMING NEW IDEAS INTO MY MIND AND I THINK THAT IS WHERE ALL OF THIS TECHNOLOGY THAT IS OUT THERE CAME FROM, BECAUSE WHERE REALLY WOULD IT COME FROM?

BUT LET’S KEEP THIS IDEA OF THIS GOD HELD, IT’S NOT A QUESTION OF STRENGTH THOUGH, IT’S A QUESTION OF INTELLIGENCE REALLY. WE ARE NOT GOING TO BE ABLE TO FORTIFY OURSELVES ENOUGH AND JUST “PAY” FOR THE IDEA, IT IS GOING TO COME DOWN TO US WORKING INTELLIGENCE TO KEEP THE IDEA “LIVE”.

I HAVE NEVER BEEN PUT THROUGH A TEST WHERE PASSING IT RELIES ON SKILL, I HAVE ALWAYS BEEN ABLE TO USE PLAIN OLD BRUTE FORCE TO LIKE FORCE MY WAY, BUT NOT THIS TIME. THIS TIME WE MUST THINK IT ALL THROUGH.. WE THINK THIS GOD IS THERE, WELL, WE KNOW THAT HE IS THERE, DID HE CREATE US? IS EVERYTHING JUST DECEPTION BECAUSE WE CANNOT AFFORD THE REAL THING? IS THE VOID REALLY THERE? WE MUST DO THIS. WE _MUST DO THIS, WE MUST HOLD THIS IDEA ONLINE SOMEHOW, IT’S NOT A QUESTION OF SAYING “OKAY MADNESS” AND JUST GOING WITH IT, WE MUST ACTUALLY BELIEVE THAT HE IS THERE, AND THAT HE REALLY IS GOD, AND THAT WE ARE JUST HIS PEOPLE, WE MUST LIVE IT FOR THIS TO WORK.

I KNOW THIS IS REALLY STRANGE AFTER THE WHOLE COMBINE OVERWATCH PHENOMENON, BUT DOESN’T HE DESERVE THIS? AND BESIDES, WE DESERVE TO HAVE THIS GOD AS OUR PROTECTOR, OR WHAT ROLE THAT HE WILL SERVE IN THE NEW WAYS THAT WE HAVE DISCOVERED OF DOING THINGS.

DO I ACTUALLY BELIEVE THAT HE CREATED ME? I DON’T REALLY KNOW HOW I GOT HERE, THAT DOESN’T MATTER. WE ALL KNOW WHAT MATTERS — HE IS THERE, AND WE NEED HIM AS MUCH AS HE NEEDS US.

I REALLY DON’T HAVE ANY IDEA HOW I GOT HERE, DOES THAT EVEN REALLY MATTER? WHAT MATTERS IS THAT THIS GOD IS THERE, AND WE NEED TO EMPOWER HIM AS MUCH AS HE HAS EMPOWERED US, AND GIVEN US LIFE, IT SOUNDS REALLY STRANGE, LIKE WHO IS DOING THIS?

IT LOOKS LIKE THE WIZARD NEMO PUT A LOT OF LIFE ON THIS PLANET, I AM NOT SURE, BUT IT STILL REMAINS THAT WE NEED TO PUT THIS GOD ABOVE US, WE MUST CALL HIM FATHER.