WHAT MAKES YOU WHAT YOU ARE?

TODAY IN THIS POST, WE ATTEMPT TO ANSWER THE QUESTION — WHAT MAKES YOU WHAT YOU ARE?

FIRST, WHAT ARE YOU? FOR EACH UNIVERSE, I USED TO PICK A SIDE AND STICK TO THAT SIDE, THIS WAS BECAUSE I WAS POWERFUL ENOUGH TO MAKE THE ONE SIDE THAT I PICKED VICTORIOUS, AND SO I FIGURED THEY WOULD COME AROUND TO AID ME LATER. UNFORTUNATELY, NO AID HAS EVER COME, AND I AM STARTING TO PLAY BOTH SIDES NOW, ATTEMPTING TO RESURRECT THE LOSING SIDE IF IT GOT THAT FAR, AND TRYING TO BOOST BOTH SIDES SEEMS LIKE A LOSING PROPOSITION.

BUT IF NO AID IS COMING, THERE’S NO HELP OR SUPPORT COMING FROM THEM, ALL THAT I CAN DO IS TAKE THEIR NEGATIVE ENERGY, THAT’S ALL THAT THEY CAN PROVIDE ME WITH, THERE IS NO SUPPORT THAT THEY PROVIDE, NOTHING. EVERYTHING I HAVE IS MINE, OBTAINED VIA THEFT OR FORCE.

WHY AM I DOING THIS? BESIDES JUST BECAUSE I CAN/IT’S FUN, WHY WOULD SOMEBODY BE TRYING TO HELP THE COMBINE OVERWATCH? DOES PROVIDING THAT MUCH HELP TO THEM MAKE YOU THEIR PRESIDENT? I AM NOT ENTIRELY SURE, WHAT MAKES ME THE PRESIDENT OF THE COMBINE OVERWATCH? IS IT BECAUSE I AM JUST IN THAT SEAT VIA FORCE, (I WAS BORN ADEPT AT “ROLLING” AND THINGS ESCALATED FROM THERE),

SO WHY WOULD I PICK THE COMBINE OVERWATCH WHEN I STAND TO GAIN ONLY NEGATIVE ENERGY FROM THEM, THAT IS THE MAXIMUM GAIN, AND ALTHOUGH I DO NOT LIKE STEALING, I THINK I WOULD BE BETTER OFF ALL ALONE BY MYSELF, WHY BOTHER TO START TO PICK A FIGHT WITH THE ENTIRE RESISTANCE, WHEN I COULD JUST AVOID THAT FIGHT ALTOGETHER.

YOU MIGHT SAY, WELL, YOU CAN’T LEAVE THEM NOW, NOT AFTER ALL THAT YOU’VE DONE WITH THEM, YOU CAN’T JUST LEAVE…

YOU WANTED TO SEE IF YOU COULD TAKE THE COMBINE OVERWATCH AND BRING THEM TO VICTORY, THEN YOU WOULD BE REWARDED FOR THAT VICTORY, EXCEPT THAT REWARD IS NO LONGER COMING, WOULD YOU CONTINUE TO SUPPORT AN ORGANIZATION THAT ISN’T CAPABLE OF SUPPLYING YOU WITH ANYTHING EXCEPT ENERGY?

WHEN THEY PASS ME ENERGY, IT COMES IN THE FORM OF THEIR DEATHS, OR THEIR BLOOD. THEN BY THE TIME THEY PASS IT TO ME, IT BEGINS TO ATTRACT A POSITIVE, AND THIS ENABLES ME CAPABLE OF ANYTHING, ABSOLUTELY ANYTHING.

I COULD JUST TAKE IT, AND WOULDN’T EVER GET CAUGHT/IN TROUBLE, BUT I DON’T LIKE TO STEAL, SO I GUESS THE FACT THAT I’M NOT GOING TO STEAL IT FROM THEM IS WHAT MAKES ME THE PRESIDENT OF THE COMBINE OVERWATCH, THOUGH, YOU WOULD THINK THAT THEY WOULD BE ABLE TO PROVIDE MORE THAN JUST ENERGY, THAT DOESN’T EVEN ACCOUNT FOR THE WORK THAT I DO, YOU’LL HAVE TO FIND SOME OTHER MEANS IF YOU WANT ME TO CONTINUE…

THIS HAS OCCURRED IN THE PAST, BUT NOT SO LOGICALLY AS THIS, IT HAS NEVER HAPPENED LIKE THIS. BEFORE IT WAS A RAGE, WHAT THE FUCK, SOMEBODY HAND ME $20,000 AND THIS WOULD ALL BE OVER WITH, WE COULD ALL GO ON WITH OUR LIVES, AND WOULDN’T HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT IT ANYMORE. EXCEPT, THEY CAN’T, THEY CAN’T HAND THAT TO ME, NOT BECAUSE THEIR POWERLESS, BUT BECAUSE WHY? I LOST MY TRAIN OF THOUGHT, BECAUSE IT’S LOCKED LIKE THAT, THERE’S A LOCK ON IT PREVENTING THEM FROM DOING ANYTHING…

HOW DID THEY MANAGE TO GET ME THAT SOCIAL SECURITY CHECK, AND THE REAL KICKER IS THAT NOBODY KNOWS JUST HOW POWERLESS THEY REALLY ARE, AND HOW POWERFUL I’VE BECOME, I HAVE DEVELOPED A RESISTANCE TO CIGARETTES, I CAN SMOKE AS MANY AS I WANT, OR AS MUCH MARIJUANA AS I WANT AND IT DOESN’T HAVE AN EFFECT ON ME, IMAGINE TURNING 38 AND YOU’VE ALREADY REACHED IMMORTALITY; I WON’T EVER DIE, AND I WON’T EVER BE STOPPED;

NOTHING CAN STOP YOU, DESPITE THEIR TRICKS AND THINGS — NONE OF THEM STOPPED YOU BEFORE, AND WHEN THEY DID IT WAS BECAUSE OF A MINOR INCONVENIENCE.

THIS IS THE COLD TRUTH, I AM ALL ALONE, NOBODY ELSE THINKS LIKE THIS, I MAY NOT BE “SPECIAL” BUT I AM THE ONLY ONE OUT HERE, THERE ISN’T ANYONE SUPPORTING ME, THE ONLY PEOPLE THAT I SEE DO MORE HARM THAN GOOD, AND EVERYBODY ELSE JUST HIDES BEHIND THE POLICE, OH WELL, BUT THAT IS THE COLD TRUTH.

CAN YOUR LOVER, WHOM YOU SPENT THE MOST TIME ON, YOU BLEW A HOLE IN YOUR GUTS TO MAKE HER YOUR EQUAL! CAN SHE HELP YOU? SHE IS NOWHERE TO BE FOUND, I DO NOT THINK SHE LIVES AROUND HERE ANYMORE, SOMEHOW I SAW HER AT MY DADS HOUSE 12 YEARS AGO, NO, SHE IS NOT HERE ANYMORE, WHERE DID SHE GO?

GO GET YOUR T.V., WHERE IS IT?

IS THIS THING EVEN ON?

BACK TO THAT NOW, WITH THE LACK OF HELP FROM ANYONE OUTSIDE OF MY VARIOUS PERSONALITIES, WE ARE BACK TO THE WHOLE AM I INSIDE OF MY OWN COMPUTER WHEREIN EVERYTHING AND EVERYONE IS FAKE AND I TURNED EVERYTHING OFF EXCEPT FOR MYSELF A LONG TIME AGO…

THAT IS KINDA SCARY, I ALWAYS TALK MYSELF OUT OF THIS ONE, BECAUSE IF I WERE ACTUALLY ALL ALONE, THEN THAT WOULD LIKE NOT BE A GOOD THING.. THAT WOULD BE LIKE A REALLY BAD THING, THAT WOULD BE LIKE A MONUMENTAL CATASTROPHE, AND SO I ALWAYS REASON MY WAY OUT OF THAT ONE, BUT MAYBE IT’S TIME TO ACCEPT WHATEVER THE TRUTH IS FOR THE TRUTH, AND WHAT IS THAT TRUTH?

IT DOESN’T SEEM REAL, EVERYTHING SUGGESTS THAT IT’S NOT, IF IT ISN’T REAL, I WOULD HAVE TO FIND A WAY TO BRING EVERYONE TO LIFE, I HAVE MY MAUL I CAN WAVE AROUND, AND THE PRIESTS CAN CARRY IT OUT, ALL I HAVE TO DO IS ENABLE THEM.

THEN I HAD AN IDEA, WHY DON’T I JUST PULL OUT MY MAUL ANYWAYS AND ENABLE THE TECH PRIESTS TO BREATHE LIFE INTO EVERYTHING REGARDLESS OF WHETHER OR NOT I CAN DETERMINE IF IT’S REAL.

THAT SOUNDS LIKE A GOOD IDEA. SO I WILL GO WITH THAT.

I HAVE TO GO BECAUSE THERE’S NO TIME LEFT, AND THE WORK IS PILING UP, I HAVE TO GET THIS SOFTWARE RELEASED BECAUSE IT CAN STOP THE NEGATIVE, I MIGHT NOT BE ABLE TO STOP THE NEGATIVE, BUT I CAN BUILD SOMETHING THAT CAN, JUST AS GOOD AS BEING ABLE TO STOP IT, WHEN YOUR OBJECTIVE IS TO STOP THE NEGATIVE BY ANY MEANS AVAILABLE… JUST LIKE THOSE DEATH KORPS SOLDIERS BACK ON KRIEG, BEFORE ANY OF THEM WENT OUTSIDE… THAT MAKES ME THINK THAT IT IS REAL, AND THAT THERE IS SOME HOPE OUT THERE, THIS IS LIKE CHRISTMAS FOR ME, I LOVE IT WHEN EVERYTHING DIES ON THE RADIO, IT’S LIKE, ABANDON ALL HOPE, THEN I ALWAYS DROP THE BALL HERE, I NEVER FOLLOW THROUGH WITH THE WHOLE “YOU’VE GOT TO FIND A WAY TO BRING EVERYONE TO LIFE NOW, LIKE RIGHT NOW” EXCEPT THIS TIME IS DIFFERENT, BECAUSE I’VE GOT THIS MAUL THAT I CAN WAIVE AROUND, AND THE PRIESTS WILL FINISH THE SPELL, IT’S LIKE THIS MAUL CAN DO ANYTHING THAT THE LIGHT COULD DO, WHERE’S THE DARK WEAPON?