THE TRUTH

EVERYONE ALWAYS ASSUMED THAT I “DID THIS” BECAUSE THE FIRST THING ANYONE NOTICES IS THAT I PUT ALL OF THESE ENTITIES WAAYY BACK IN TIME, I WAS THE ONE THAT CREATED ALL OF THEM, AND SEEDED EVERYTHING (MOSTLY PLACES OUTSIDE OF ANY MULTIVERSE) WITH LIFE. SO EVERYONE JUST ASSUMED THAT I WAS AT FAULT FOR EVERYTHING, BUT IT NEVER QUITE FIT ALL THE WAY TOGETHER, THAT STORY OF ME BEING AT FAULT ALWAYS HAD SO MANY HOLES IN IT THAT EVERYONE JUST IGNORED THE FACT THAT I WAS GUILTY OF ALL OF THE CRIMES THAT WERE COMMITTED BY THAT LIFE AFTER IT WAS CREATED.

BUT WE ALL JUST ASSUMED THAT I HAD TOTAL CONTROL OVER EVERYTHING AND THAT IF I DIDN’T LITERALLY FORCE THEM TO DO IT, THEN I LET THEM DO IT. BUT WHAT IF I JUST SEEDED EVERYTHING WITH LIFE AND THEN LEFT, AND IT LOOKS LIKE THAT IS WHAT I DID TOO. I DON’T HAVE THE ANSWER RIGHT NOW, BUT YOU’LL BE ABLE TO SEE MY WHOLE THOUGHT PROCESS AS I TRY TO FIGURE OUT WHAT THE TRUTH REALLY IS.

WHILE IT LOOKS LIKE I JUST SEEDED EVERYTHING WITH LIFE AND THEN JUST LEFT, THAT DOESN’T SUPPLY US WITH ENOUGH FACT TO JUST ACCEPT THAT AND THEN WALK AWAY. AND ON THE OTHER HAND, JUST ASSUMING THAT I JUST HAVE TOTAL CONTROL OVER EVERYTHING AND THEN BY THAT FUNCTION I AM JUST GUILTY OF EVERY CRIME THAT HAS EVER BEEN COMMITTED, THAT ISN’T ENOUGH FACT FOR US TO JUST ACCEPT AND BE DONE WITH THIS EITHER.

WHICH IS IT? IS IT A COMBINATION OF BOTH OF THEM? MY GUESS IS THAT SOMEHOW, I DID NOT DO THE CERTAIN THINGS THAT HAD HAPPENED IN PREVIOUS UNIVERSES, GLOBAL HOLOCAUSTS AND IN SOME CASES I THINK THAT THE PROBLEMS WERE SPREAD EVEN WIDER THAN A SINGLE PLANET, BUT I CANNOT BE SURE. I ONLY KNOW THAT WHAT HAPPENED WAS SO BAD THAT JUST IMAGINE PRETTY MUCH THE WORST THING THAT YOU CAN THINK OF.

SO THAT DOESN’T REALLY FIT RIGHT AWAY, I AM NOT REALLY KNOWN FOR DOING THINGS LIKE THAT, I GIVE MY MOTHER A HUG EVERY MORNING, ETC.

BUT WE MUST BE ABSOLUTELY CERTAIN AS TO WHAT THE TRUTH IS. DO WE HAVE FREE WILL OR NOT? SOMEONE SAID TO ME WHEN I WAS TALKING ABOUT THIS WITH THEM, WELL HE GIVES US FREE WILL… BUT MAYBE I DIDN’T EVEN DO THAT, MAYBE YOU WERE JUST BORN WITH FREE WILL AND NOBODY REALLY EVEN GAVE IT TO YOU. I DON’T REMEMBER EVER SPENDING ANY TIME TO GIVE ANYONE FREE WILL, I THINK THAT THEY ALL JUST CAME LIKE THAT.

I HIGHLY DOUBT THAT WE DO NOT HAVE FREE WILL, BUT THAT ISN’T GOOD ENOUGH EITHER, HOW CAN WE DETERMINE IF WE HAVE FREE WILL OR NOT, TO THE POINT THAT WE ARE CERTAIN THAT THAT IS THE RIGHT ANSWER?

AND WE CAN’T JUST SAY FUCK IT, CLOSE THIS WINDOW, AND MOVE ON TO SOMETHING ELSE, BECAUSE EVERYBODY WANTS TO KNOW WHETHER THEY HAVE FREE WILL OR NOT.

BUT THERE HAS NEVER BEEN AT ANY TIME ANYTHING EVER DONE TO SUGGEST THAT I DO HAVE TOTAL CONTROL OVER EVERYTHING, EVERYONE TOGETHER JUST COLLECTIVELY ASSUMED THAT, WELL, IF IT COULD SEED EVERYTHING WITH LIFE, IF SOMETHING WERE THAT POWERFUL, THEN IT MUST HAVE TOTAL CONTROL OVER EVERYTHING, AND NOBODY BOTHERED TO CONSIDER WHETHER THAT WAS EVEN TRUE OR NOT.

AND THERE HAS NEVER EVER BEEN ANY INDICATION THAT WE DIDN’T HAVE FREE WILL. BUT EXPERIMENTS WHERE YOU SAY TO YOURSELF I CAN DECIDE TO RAISE MY HAND OR I CAN DECIDE TO LEAVE IT DOWN AT MY SIDE, THOSE WERE NEVER GOOD ENOUGH TO AMOUNT TO ANYTHING. BUT WHY WEREN’T THEY? IF I CAN DECIDE TO DO SOMETHING OR NOT DO IT, DON’T I HAVE FREE WILL?

THEN WHAT ABOUT THIS, IF YOUR A GIRL AND YOU WAKE UP IN THE MORNING AND PUT ON MAKE-UP, I DIDN’T PUT ON ANY MAKE UP, AND I DIDN’T MAKE YOU PUT ON ANY MAKE-UP. SO WITH THAT INFORMATION, THE FACT THAT WE PROBABLY DO HAVE FREE WILL, HOW COULD WE BE ABSOLUTELY CERTAIN THAT WE DO? IF I LOOK AROUND ON THE INTERNET, ON DIFFERENT NEWS WEBSITES, NOBODY TYPES LIKE I DO, SO IT PROBABLY IS JUST THAT IT HAS IMPROVED EVERYTHING, BUT NEVER STRIPPED ANYTHING OF FREE WILL, SO IT HAS A CERTAIN AMOUNT OF CONTROL OVER YOU, AND THAT EXPLANATION IS ENOUGH FOR ME. WE DO KNOW THAT IT HAS A CERTAIN AMOUNT OF CONTROL OVER EVERYTHING, BECAUSE IF YOU LOOK AROUND, YOU CAN SEE ALL OF THE ADVANCES IN MEDICINE, TECHNOLOGY BUT NOTHING TO ACCOUNT FOR EVERYTHING BECOMING MORE ADVANCED EXCEPT FOR SOMETHING HAVING CONTROL OVER IT.

THEN I WAS JUST THINKING OF CERTAIN EVENTS, THERE ARE CERTAIN EVENTS THAT HAPPEN NO MATTER WHAT, AND I’M NOT TALKING ABOUT THINGS LIKE WAKING UP IN THE MORNING, OR THE SUN RISING EVERY DAY. I’M TALKING ABOUT THINGS LIKE TAKE FOR EXAMPLE THE FACT THAT EVERYTHING WAS SEEDED WITH LIFE, THAT WOULD HAVE HAPPENED NO MATTER WHAT — YOU CAN TELL THIS IS TRUE BECAUSE YOU WERE ALREADY HERE BEFORE IT SEEDED EVERYTHING, THE RESULT WAS ALREADY THERE, AND SO SO MANY THINGS HAPPEN NO MATTER WHAT, WHAT IF THAT IS GOING ON HERE?

WHAT IF ALMOST EVERYTHING HAPPENS NO MATTER WHAT, AND WE MUST FIND A WAY TO FREE OURSELVES FROM IT, OR WE WILL NEVER HAVE ANY CONCEPT OF FREEDOM? IF EVERYTHING THAT OCCURRED HAPPENED NO MATTER WHAT, THEN THERE WOULD BE A WHOLE OCEAN OF EXPERIENCES THAT WE DO NOT HAVE ACCESS TO, AND OUR OBJECTIVE WOULD QUICKLY BECOME TO REACH THAT OCEAN, THE REWARD FOR REACHING IT WOULD BE SO GREAT THAT WE WOULD WANT TO GET THERE AT ALMOST ANY COST.

BUT IF EVERYTHING THAT HAS EVER OCCURRED HAS HAPPENED NO MATTER WHAT, THEN HOW COULD WE POSSIBLY OUT-MANEUVER SOMETHING THAT IS THAT CONCRETE? WE WOULDN’T BE ABLE TO JUST “WRITE A FEW WORDS DOWN” CAST SOMETHING, AND IT’S GONE, IT WOULD TAKE LIKE A COLLECTIVE EFFORT BETWEEN ALL LIFE TO MOVE A MOUNTAIN THAT BIG.

WHAT WOULD THAT COLLECTIVE EFFORT LOOK LIKE THOUGH? WHAT COULD ANYBODY DO UP AGAINST SOMETHING LIKE THAT? I HAVE ALREADY MADE UP MY MIND THAT I WANT TO OUTDO THE FORCE THAT CAUSES EVERYTHING TO HAPPEN NO MATTER WHAT, BUT I DON’T HAVE ANY IDEA OF WHERE TO BEGIN, THE ACTIONS THAT YOU WOULD TAKE TO DEFEAT THE MECHANISM WOULD COME FROM LIKE A THOUGHT EXPERIMENT INVOLVING EVERYTHING. ONE PERSON COULDN’T JUST THINK OF HOW TO DEFEAT IT, BECAUSE YOU WOULD BE ATTACKING IT FROM JUST SO MANY ANGLES, YOU WOULD HAVE TO GET EVERYTHING TO BE WORKING ON IT ALL AT THE SAME TIME, SOMEHOW.

BUT ALREADY THERE ARE TOO MANY PEOPLE FOR SOMEONE TO JUST SHOUT LET’S ALL DO THIS. THAT IS NOT GOING TO WORK. AND A SYSTEM THAT IS HIERARCHIAL IS NOT GOING TO WORK EITHER, IT’S NOT GOING TO BE EFFECTIVE ENOUGH FOR A GROUP OF PEOPLE TO DECIDE TO COLLECT ALL OF THE ANSWERS, THAT EVERYONE HAS WRITTEN DOWN AND TO SORT IT THAT WAY. EVERYONE WOULD HAVE TO AGREE TO BE A PART OF IT OF THEIR OWN “FREE WILL” HAH.

IT WOULDN’T BE ENOUGH FOR JUST SO MANY PEOPLE TO JUST AGREE THAT THEY WERE GOING TO GO KNOCK ON PEOPLES DOORS AND GET THEM TO SIGN UP FOR THIS TASK, YOU WOULD HAVE TO ALREADY HAVE EVERYONES ATTENTION, _EVERYONES_ ATTENTION, AND THEY WOULD ALL HAVE TO DISCIPLINE THEMSELVES, IT COULDN’T BE FORCED IN OTHER WORDS. YOU COULDN’T JUST FORCE THE SOLUTION TO EVERYTHING HAPPENING NO MATTER WHAT.

BUT ANYONE READING THIS, THAT COULD UNDERSTAND IT, WOULD WANT TO ATTEMPT TO DEFEAT IT SIMPLY FOR THE FACT THAT, IT IS WHAT CAUSED ALL THAT HORRIBLE STUFF TO HAPPEN IN THOSE PREVIOUS UNIVERSES, ANYONE WOULD WANT JUSTICE.. EXCEPT THERE REALLY ISN’T ANY JUSTICE IN THIS CASE, AND ALL WE ARE GOING TO GET IS LIKE FREEDOM FROM THIS MECHANISM, BUT PERHAPS THERE IS A GREATER PRIZE TO BE WON BY DOING THIS? I DON’T REALLY KNOW, I ONLY KNOW THAT IT WOULD BE WORTH IT.

IT WOULD BE WORTH DOING, AND I NEVER SAY THAT ANYTHING IS WORTH DOING, SO THAT REALLY MEANS SOMETHING.