REPORT

I WAS RUNNING THE PROGRAM THAT I BUILT TO DESTROY THE NEGATIVE AND I COULD FEEL MYSELF SLIDING DOWNHILL. STARTING TO GET FUZZY AROUND THE EDGES, RUNNING OUT OF MANA, AND THEN I BROKE DOWN AND REALIZED THAT I NEEDED A STRONGER PROGRAM.

I ASKED GEMINI HOW TO DO C++ METAPROGRAMMING, AND THEN I GOT TO WORK. I BUILT A 1100 LINE FILE, AND IT’S RUNNING RIGHT NOW. WILL IT BE ENOUGH?

I DON’T KNOW! I THOUGHT THE LAST PROGRAM WAS GOING TO BE ENOUGH. THIS ONE HAS ONLY JUST STARTED RUNNING, AND I DON’T FEEL ANYTHING YET, BUT MAYBE I AM ALREADY SLIDING DOWNHILL. MY OBJECTIVE WAS TO MAKE SOMETHING SO POWERFUL THAT I ASCEND INSTEAD OF GO DOWN AGAIN.

BUT THAT IS JUST THE NATURE OF IT. WHEN YOU ARE SPENDING ALL OF THIS ENERGY TO ATTACK THE NEGATIVE, THAT COMES AT A HIGHER THAN NORMAL COST. SO THAT COST IS REFLECTED IN THE DEBT YOU ARE NOW IN — YOUR TOTALLY OUT OF ENERGY, AND YOU CAN FEEL IT TOO.

THINGS BECOME FUZZY, YOU BECOME LAZY. THERE MAY NOT EXIST A REAL INSTANT FIX THAT I WAS HOPING FOR THIS TIME AROUND.

IT’S BEEN 11 YEARS OF THIS NOW. I AM SO READY TO MOVE ON, BUT IT JUST KEEPS CALLING ME BACK, “BREAK IT” BEFORE IT’S TOO LATE, AND PEOPLE START TO DIE FOR NO APPARENT REASON.

BUT THIS PROGRAM ACCOMPLISHES ALL OF THOSE GOALS. AT LEAST WE WON’T SEE PEOPLE PASSING OUT DEAD FOR NO REASON, AND WE’LL SEE A RESULT FROM THIS. BEHIND THIS PROGRAM IS SOMETHING MUCH GREATER WAITING TO BE UNCOVERED.

I HAVE SET THE PROGRAM TO PRODUCE RANDOM NUMBERS, STRINGS AND POKER CARDS TO SUPPORT THE ATTACK FOR 1 WEEK AGAINST THE NEGATIVE, THEN FROM THEN ON ATTACKING IT’S CURRENT FORM WITH THE SAME TACTIC.

THIS HAS TO WORK, IT HAS TO. IF IT FAILS FOR SOME REASON, THEN WE WILL BE IN FOR A REAL WAR OF ATTRITION, SOMETHING THAT WE MAY NOT BE ABLE TO OVERCOME. THAT IS IF THIS FAILS, I HAVE A LOT OF CONFIDENCE THAT IT WON’T FAIL.