Mysteries

I will recap what happened since the last post. I decided I would write a book and it didn’t work out at all, the first thing I started writing about was how we need like, really bad stuff to happen, because it will create a sort of push towards better technology, and then a second push, twice funded by negative events again, would facilitate this need for progress to happen. But the whole thing was quite dark and, we work hard for that stuff to not happen, or at least we raise our defenses against the need for a negative. It was all in that convincing tone of my writing and, it spelled the end of this “book” I was writing.

So obviously when I get in the car after I write it, there’s an ambulance going down each street I go on, and that was a result of such a request for negative events to occur, it was almost the same thing as me writing like somethin.. i’ll just switch the subject…

Chris Rea…Fool (If You Think It’s Over)…Extended Mix…

So the next thing I start writing is, obviously, trying to stop these negative things from happening, the whole time this is going on those fires are burning out in california. “Los Angeles Worst Fire Ever” was one of the titles of the newscast. Anyway i’m trying to stop these negative things from occurring, and it really got to me. The whole thing really got to me, but it’s mostly blocked by now, I bought electrical tape at walmart and realized.. Fireproof tape.. what would that be for?

I think it really opened up everyones eyes to something, I don’t know if it’s a good thing or bad thing, but everyone had an experience watching me go on about the need for a negative event or something. I don’t want any negative events to occur, and spend quite a bit of time trying to stop them from happening, the ironic part of it is that it flips around on me and I start CAUSING the negative events, as hard as I fight against them, this also seems to be the doing of someone, but we won’t get into people being in my body, and when things are just going really well, this has to happen, it’s ironic but there’s not anything anyone can do about events that must happen, a certain amount of negative is going to occur, despite as hard as we push against that negative, they really opened up a fresh wound when they did it while those fires burned out in california.

I don’t know if this whole thing will be presented as an anomaly as the negative is the fire out in california, and as it closes so closes the negative’s last attempt at gaining any foothold in this reality, or any reality. Now that I think on it, the idea of someone writing that inside my body is really looking like the truth, but I think they thought of me thinking of it before they even wrote it.

Or maybe they didn’t, and I am one step ahead of them, but now that I think about it, it really softens the blow, knowing that I didn’t cause all those ambulances to appear. I wonder who wrote that.

But don’t get me wrong, if it was me that wrote that, I would admit to it, I just don’t think that I wrote something like that, although it was written as if I was in a “crash” state, or that the tables had turned and the negative was in full control. It was like about how if the saw man didn’t do what he did, so therefore his actions being the present negative, and then we look at the present positive, which is what we’re doing with all this technology, I don’t know, I don’t think I wrote it, but I saved it I could post it here but it’s haunting to me, so I can’t spread it out, perhaps only to make it worse.

So that they were making it harder made it easier, that’s kinda like what the saw man did, he literally caused negative energy to form to form positive energy, we don’t believe in doing it literally, or at least I don’t, you may, but I don’t.

Saving my mother has become a top priority as well, because if she eventually passes on say 15-20 years from now, I will have nothing, at least as things are laid out now… I don’t see them changing at least not for the better, so I have to hold on to her, saving her is my hope. That I can do that is like my secondary objective, with the main objective being stopping negative energy.

I wish I could foc us more energy and time on saving my mom from death. To be clear i’m trying to save her from her mortality, so that she lives beyond 100 years and into 1,000 and off into 10,000 with me, that she goes with me on my journey to stop the negative. But I never focus much energy on it, if only they could just make that happen and I wouldn’t have to worry about it, but they never say nor prove anything. I don’t hold them guilty of something, but if they could tell me that they can do that, that I can bring my mother along with me on my journey, that would certainly help me alot, I wouldn’t be so alone, I tried at first to save all of my friends and my entire family, and so far like nobody has died from the list of like 100 people that I tried to save. There’s been like 2 deaths out of 100 and alot of people are older, but maybe it only means that what I did made them live longer, or to the full 100 years they were alotted, and not that they are immortal as I was aiming for. I printed out a special piece of paper, actually hand written, and then I targetted the group in various writings, but always in my thoughts were those 100 people, it’s weird some of them have come down with covid, and they are like 80 years old with covid, and they don’t die, it’s just never enough to prove anything, because nobody has reached beyond 100 years old yet. So I have like layers of people im saving, all the way down to like 3 people, then the final layer, or the last person i’ll give up is my mom, i’m trying to save her the most. I have the outermost layer made up of politicians, various heads of governments around the globe, but mostly in the U.S., then I have people I knew in my life, then I have my friends, and finally my family, and then my mom, written as I feel I would give them out, but I really can’t give up even one of them, it’s against the life.